It's all about
finding the calm
in the chaos
Image "Vashti at dawn"
Summer 2013. Aged 28 and a quarter.
I was looking in the chart table for one last time to check that all three of us had our passports, while the groaning sound of the outer lock gates opening at Shotley Marina signified the start of our North Sea crossing. It was just after midday, and as our thick black heavy mooring warps slipped through the cleats of the lock, and fell back aboard Lillibullero all three of us turned for one last time to wave to my mother, Nick's parents, and the lock keeper at Shotley who would see us return in 10 days time.As I shoved down the throttle Lillibullero's two cylinder Diesel engine slowly wound up it's heavy flywheel and started pushing the 12 ton smack forwards out of the lock and into the brown lumpy waters of Harwich Harbour. The bow slowly started bobbing up and down as the fishing smack "Transcur" was a welcome, friendly sight waiting for us anchored just inside the River Stour.
We followed Transcur out of the Harbour while the swell was building and though the waves weren't particularly big, they created an uncomfortable chop and a confused mess that I've experienced so many times inside Harwich Harbour. The wind was somewhere in the north and after heaving up a full mainsail, No1 jib, and working staysail, we bore away a few degrees and Lillibullero drove on close hauled, waving a 12ft long bowsprit over the top of the murk. Transcur ahead would occasionally rear up and dive down, with more length at the waterline and more beam than Lillibullero she looked to be having a bit more of a rough ride than us, as we ploughed on and sliced through the worst of it.
The feeling at this point was mixed, a combination of excitement and anxiety. The unknown lay ahead, a fear that rarely torments me but punches hard when it does. So as the usual questions and answers were going through my mind, I was rapidly weighing up various possible outcomes and their probability in an attempt to rationalise my thoughts. Would the sea state be like this all the way? Would the other two crew be ok with the motion? Would the wind ease off in the night, or increase? We did a handbrake turn out of the harbour around Languard point and were currently heading North East for the shipwash and I was hoping a bear away to the East would calm the motion down a little and certainly increase our boat speed, once around the sands. I knew I generally felt more comfortable in open water but a lumpy start, face first into the wind always raises the heart rate.
After a couple of hours sailing through what felt like lumpy mud, the North cardinal "N Shipwash" buoy came into sight and as the compass card swung around to due East, we were pointing for our final destination, the Roompotsluis some 24 hours away. The motion of the boat was more comfortable now, as Lillibullero was sailing free with a powerful rig to push her on, the wind had softened to 15 knots on the beam and this Smack Yacht was in her element. Lillibullero felt happy and at home reaching across the North Sea at full power, driving hard with free sheets on a beam reach as she had been built to do, in 1932. One more look over my shoulder and the big heavy Shipwash buoy gave us a nod goodbye. It's easy to sit back and enjoy the ride at sea and a combination of boat design and laziness meant we didn't keep up with Transcur and after a few hours she slowly faded away over the horizon.
Sailing all afternoon and evening past wind farm after wind farm, the offshore sun was strong and dry, the air cool and salty and the water turquoise blue. The waves had increased in size but also length and we were comfortably sailing up with a slight surf down the back of them, this truly was offshore sailing at its absolute finest. We occasionally used a little engine power at just over idle to boost our speed and glance the other smack for both of our safety. Having lost sight of the UK, our mobile phone and VHF reception home were long gone. For hours on end, all that surrounded us was blue water and blue sky. I now felt relaxed and enjoyed being back at sea with the space and time to think about what needed doing next.
As darkness approached, half a bag of dry rice appeared on the cabin floor, followed by some shouting below and 20 minutes later three plates of warm chicken curry and cooked rice appeared in the cockpit. This was a welcome hot meal just before the sun bid us farewell over the horizon to our stern. In an instant the air fell cold and although we were basking in the sun previously, it was now time for a wooly hat, coat, and gloves - in mid August. At this time of the day the three crew shift pattern would begin and my old mate Dad was the first to go down. We try to keep noise on deck to a minimum while crew lay in a cosy warm sleeping bag below, in a cabin dimly lit by the screen of a radar, telling us Transcur was again 3 nautical miles to our East.
While Nick and I kept ourselves busy updating a paper chart, we began the "where's wally" game of figuring out which vessels were around us and where they were pointing. The wind was slowly building however and two hours or so after heading down, big Mike was awakened by the sound of Nick and myself reefing the mainsail in 20 knots of wind as we crossed the border into Belgium. A rather inhospitable welcome.
At this very early hour in the morning it was my turn to go off-shift and after some acrobatics trying to get out of my wet weather gear I landed in my sleeping bag spent a few minutes finding the right position and the metaphoric lights went out. 3 hours later I was woken up by the cabin lights coming on and a tired looking face peering through the companionway. In what felt like one quick blink my shift below had come and gone. It was Nick's turn off shift and having been up all day and most of the night, he looked like he deserved it in these early hours which by now were somewhere between 2 and 3am.
It's never easy to face getting out of a warm sleeping bag and into a cold cabin, to then get dressed in the salty cold clothes that were thrown on the cabin floor only a few hours ago. A cup of coffee motivates me as I now watch Nick perform the "getting chest high trousers off in a 2 metre swell with no headroom" manoeuvre. While I find this hilarious, I'm so tired that my facial expression is gormless.
When I found myself on deck once more, the red sidelight in Transcur's rigging lay abeam of us, at a distance I struggled to comprehend. However, it was clear that we were travelling through a relatively small channel between two wind farms. An array of lights marking the top of these windmills spread either side of us, as far as the eye could see, miles and miles across with the entire wind farm flashing on, and off, at the same time. This sight was both disorientating and in a strange way re-assuring at the same time. Was it really possible to get lost out here?
A short while after we had passed through these particular wind farms the sun that disappeared over the stern a few hours ago began to illuminate the horizon over the bow, and a dull, grey light cast itself across the water around us and I could see the deck planks, the rigging and the burgee once again. The sun was as enthusiastic about getting out of bed as I had been and it took what felt like an hour before we saw it rising. Daylight signified the beginning of a well earned breakfast and this broke Nick from his slumber below. We began to see local yachts and fishing boats, flying Belgian or Dutch ensigns and our accomplishment started to feel real. A couple of hours passed and the wind went very light forcing us to use the engine against a strong south running tide before the coastline of the continent appeared over the horizon. Finally, after sailing all afternoon, all night and all morning, we had drawn a horizontal line across the North Sea and made it somewhere else.
Motoring North along the Dutch coast for an hour or so more, we passed the seaside town of Domburg, before picking out the buoys that guided us in to reaching the harbour walls of the Roompotsluis with hot coffee in hand. It's standard practice at most locks and bridges in The Netherlands to loiter for a green light and along with Transcur we waited for the Dutch authorities to turn this huge lock around for us. Once inside, the sound of the gates groaning to a close behind us signified the end of our North Sea passage.
I touched the concrete wall in the lock and slipped a thick damp mooring warp around the iron post. Something so simple meant such a great deal to me at this time. The childhood memories of stepping into my mirror dinghy at Holbrook Creek in Suffolk, sailing one mile across the River Stour and then stepping onto the beach at Wrabness in Essex were coming back to me. This was a similar feeling on a much larger scale, for the first time in my life, along with my father and lifelong friend Nick, I had sailed across the North Sea. The water level rose very little before the inside gates opened and the calm blue water of the Oosterschelde lay ahead of us like an oil painting. The wind wasn't much above a force two from astern and we set all the canvas we had, slowly drifting up this sanctuary of a waterway. The choppy swell of the cold North Sea had become cats paws on a blue inland waterway, the holidays had arrived.
We had a relaxed sail up to Wemeldinge, squeezing under the never ending Zeeland bridge less than a metre abeam Transcur. Gaff rigged masts of all kind were rafted in the marina, poking up behind the harbour walls like a pin cushion and we followed our soon to be Dutch friends Edgar and Else on their large ketch Windbreker into the far end of the marina. British and Dutch friends were scattered ashore and it was a homely feeling to raft alongside "Bonify" a close friend's boat from our home port, Pin Mill. As exhausted as we were, stepping ashore in The Netherlands was a moment of accomplishment and after a dash to the shower facilities, we soon found ourselves enjoying a local beer with old friends and new.
We had now joined the opening party of the Dutch Old Gaffers Association's 10th anniversary and the next 10 days would see us travel across the inland waterways of Holland from South to North, meeting new friends, tasting new food, and seeing new sights. However, before then I slept the best night's sleep of my life in my bunk on Lillibullero.
Clive Robertson, sailing all sorts since 1990.
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